Wet and cold.

It's a cold and wet November night. My cigarettes = 2 up to now. Maybe another before bed. I know I shouldn't though.
I have decided, that after I finish this packet, that will be it! I must be firm. It is a little after 10 30 pm.
In a way, I have done well. But in another way, I have done badly. I want to do well, I really do. Not only am I letting myself down, but others too. Maybe, really, not all of them care. maybe they do.
I admire those that have given up completely. I really do.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day! Fingers crossed and willpower to the fore!
Might make my Christmas cake tomorrow after shopping.